Muscle memory

January 14, 2021 § 11 Comments

Old & Slow!

I finally got on my bike today to go for a “ride.” Except for the riding that I’ve done, I’ve been off the bike for two weeks now. It felt good to pedal without a backpack and without a bunch of crap attached to my bike. My new life as a bicycle tourist is so peaceful now, no more stresses about fitness and group rides.

I ride for fun.

I figured it would be a good day to ride up Paseo del Mar by Bluff Cove. The surf looked like it might we working, and as everyone knows, the road and bluff in front of 612 Paseo del Mar is invariably jam-packed with surfers this time of year when there is a swell. I wasn’t disappointed. The sad “for sale” sign was still there, as it will be until the owner realizes that no one is going to pay $9.5M for a hideously ugly, 20-year-old fixer-upper that serves as the front porch for one of LA’s busiest surf party scenes.

Free parking! And nearby party house for lease!

As with the failed attempts of the owner to unload this white elephant in 2011 and again in 2015, the only activism that will be going on at Villa Activista is trying to figure out how to trick potential buyers into thinking that solitude means “massive traffic jam in front of your house.”

More solitude! For only $9.5M!!

Once I got back on PV Drive my legs reminded me that I am slow and out of shape, so much so that even a short climb left me achey and winded. Doesn’t matter though, because tourist. As I dropped down past Pregnant Point onto the “other” Paseo del Mar, some dude came racing by in full kit. It is easy and fun to pass people on the downhill, especially when the person you’re passing looks like me. This guy was in full Billy Badass mode. “Enjoy it!” I thought.

In my dotage, I have accepted my new place in the peloton. Old, slow, weak, washed up. Face the music, old fella.

However, as I approached Lunada Bay, I noticed that Billy Badass had winded himself by all that downhill pedaling, and now, as the road rose, he was feeling the after-effects of gravity. I pedaled a little harder.

With another keen glance I noted the old Rome-Paris pedal stroke, where one leg points off to Rome and the other to Paris, characteristic of folks who aren’t feeling too perky. I pedaled a little harder.

As he went through the stop sign and the grade increased, he really slowed. I dropped it a couple of cogs and started to mash, passing him hard. It is easy and fun to pass people who passed you and are now blown. Okay, so I wasn’t touring anymore. But I wasn’t really racing, either. I was just testing my fitness.

But Billy wasn’t going to let this one go. No scraggly-bearded, pencil-legged, tennis-shoed grandpa on a big-tire bike was gonna pass him, no sir. But he had a gap to close, and I wasn’t letting up, and the grade was still increasing and about to make the left-hand curve and really kick up. I heard him struggling, so as we bent left, I stood. It got very noisy behind, then deathly quiet.

Now I was the one who was winded. Not so much winded as wrecked. And I still had the right-hander followed by the right kicker that went back to PV Drive, following the Donut Ride course. Billy may have been blown, but he was also in his 20s and had that magical thing called recovery, and he was charging.

This was going to end badly. No lungs, no legs, no heart. Mr. Scott had no more power to give. And what did I care? I’m a tourist now. I ride for fun.

And then a funny thing happened.

I made the final right-hand kicker with Billy hot on my heels. But instead of blowing, my muscle memory took over. “This,” they said, “is the Donut. This is your piece of pavement. Sit back, boy. We know what to do.” I came out of the saddle and without even thinking, did what I always do there, drop it a cog even when I don’t need the gear–the simple “chunk” of the chain going down a cog is often enough to make people on the limit give up.

Which is what Billy did. That “chunk” went straight from his ears to his heart and I could almost hear him saying, “Fuck it, today was supposed to be my easy anyway.”

But the muscles, overloaded and drenched in lactic acid, they only recognized the course, the route, and how many pedal strokes I’d need to get over the hump. They remembered. And then after the turn onto PV Drive, even though I was empty from this pitiful effort, they remembered some more: Always kick it hard after the turn to widen the gap, then put your head down and pedal like a motherfucker.

And I did.

I caught my breath, a little, and sped on to Hawthorne, grateful to have the excuse to turn left and get out of Billy’s sights. I needn’t have worried. He was a tiny little speck.


Amazing view … just imagine away the cars and people!


§ 11 Responses to Muscle memory

  • dangerstu says:

    The power of the darkside is strong…

  • You’ve mentioned a few times that a motivation for your competitive streak is anger. I love to ride fast and be competitive, but I’ve thought about it, and it’s not because I’m angry. I’m only angry about some things in this world that I should be angry about.

    I ride fast because it’s fun. I love to hear the wind whistling in my ears. It’s a real rush to fly down a hill. Swooping around corners is a thrill. Chasing down someone ahead of me and making the pass stick makes me feel like I still have it, even though I’ve only ever had a modest amount of “it”.

    I hope that you’ve worked through some of your darker emotions, and now you can enjoy riding fast again. You don’t have to race – I don’t. Just enjoy the rush!

    • fsethd says:

      It’s not riding fast v. slow, it’s weighted or unweighted. Riding unweighted right now feels fantastic!

  • Dan says:

    Sounds like you still have some work to do on yourself. I thought this was going to be a story about how you caught back up with Billy and had a nice chat and rode the hill together. Maybe time to take another cross-country ride.

  • Ian Mangion says:

    Glad to see you have succeeded in slaying your inner demon of compulsive competition!

  • pvannuys says:

    Bicycling encompasses many behaviors, many expressions of self, offers many joys. The more diverse a rider’s experience the more joys uncovered. Wannabe racers, even real ones, miss the boat if the only joy they permit themselves is fueled by competition. Old racers are inevitably fat.
    Old tourists,however, are usually fit.
    You have evolved from racer to commuter to tourist, each bestowing you with different challenges, skill sets, and physical rewards. You have a base which most racers cannot begin to imagine. And it will take more than two weeks on you ass to lose even 5% of that.
    A consummate bicycle wanker, I’m still motivated by the sight of fresh meat on the road ahead, and privately revel in running it down. But when I’m roadkill myself I never feel destroyed, my life as a cyclist continues. Should you tackle the BWR again I’m betting you’ll find it a whole new adventure.

    • fsethd says:

      I was tired when I got back but feel great now. It’s going to take a couple of weeks to feel really good, but that process is fun, too. Getting passed, not so much …

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